I DISCOVERED MY STRENGTH DURING THE PANDEMIC
I DISCOVERED MY
STRENGTH DURING THE PANDEMIC
I woke up one day, and the whole world had become silent.
There were moans of fear, silent screams of anguish and dark despair of death.
The deafening silences the uneasy calm, harbinger of the oncoming, relentless
unsympathetic storm of pestilence and disease.
I was numb. But as we all do, slowly I started to pick up the
pieces of the life of a new normal. I looked around and a question rose – what
would happen if the grime reaper were to take me today?
Being an economic dependent, my exit will cause no economic
ripples. But am I not integral to the home and hearth? Suddenly the truth
dawned – what I do is not irreplaceable but what I am is. And then began my real
journey, my sojourn to discover, who and what am I, in complete and absolute
terms.
Each action and thought became an internal case study. Are
these arising from a desire to please? Please whom? Are these arising from a
place of anxiety? Anxious for what? Are these the inner darkness cloaked in the
guise of care? Care for whom?
As the cacophony of catching up in the world, seemed like a
distant dream, and living meant, each day is a complete whole with no real plan
for tomorrow, the inner self asserted its identity.
Thoughts and actions started identifying, caring and pleasing
the only one who counts in my inner universe—the me.
True source of joy was, is and always will be within me and
without a thought I has spent half my life looking for it in all the places it
does not exist. The more my communion with myself increased, the more I moved
from irrelevant, judgmental, and unnecessary one upmanship.
The bustle and race of the world became an object to be
known, but as an outsider. Recognition of the unfettered connection with my
higher, joyful self, moved me to a space of complete acceptance of all
relationships, people and situations, just as they are. All strife ended.
Time and life turned into the gentle wash of the waves
against the dynamic, and immovable blissful self. And this I realized was my
true strength.
If the pandemic would not have put the world to a screeching
halt, I would still be running a marathon with no destination. So despite all
its negative connotations attached to it, I do see the pandemic as the trigger
for the discovery of my inner strength.
From the place of inner strength
Bhairavi A Daftary
Inner Wheel Club of Bombay Queen’s Necklace
District 314
Enjoyed reading, a piece of art!!!
ReplyDeleteSo true...we are all running a marathon with no destination!
ReplyDeleteReal point to reflect upon 👏👏
Salute the one who penned down this article and her inner strength
ReplyDeleteTrue reflection of our unguarded thoughts
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ReplyDeleteThoughts and feelings are so well captured through the words …..
Such a well written piece...
ReplyDeleteVery inspiring
ReplyDeleteVery eloquently conveyed
ReplyDeleteVery well penned and thought provoking!
ReplyDeleteAgreed
DeleteBeautifully expressed with choicest words.
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